Monday, May 30, 2011

Love is a game that two can play and both win.

Tere.

Koolis oli normaalne, jooksin 8 ringi 11 minutiga ja enesetunne oli hea. Igatahes, teine tund, läksime klassiga aulasse, harjutasime tutipeo laulu, mis tegime õpetajate kohta. Okei, meeleolu on päris hea juba ja kõik on süvenenud, kui jäsrku sajab sisse näost punane ja väga kuri direktor: "Kas te küsisite kellegi käest luba, et tulla see tund siia laulma?!" Kallis inimene, meie ajaloo õpetaja oli eksamil ja eelmine tund ta lubas meil tulla harjutama. Tuli välja, et meie ajaloo õpetaja hakkas direle kõik tagasi ajama ja lõppude lõpuks jäime meie süüdi. Direktor tahtis ju meile üldse selle tunni aeg füüsikat teha, milline lohh. Meil oleks niigi olnud füüsika kuues tund, ja praegu on õppeaasta lõpp, seega palun jäta oma arusaamatud & seosetud füüsika tunnid endale.

Tulin mingi aeg tagasi raamatukogust. Võtsin raamatu, kus kaks eestlast räägivad oma kogemustest Ameerika tee peal jms. Tahaks ise ka sinna. Ja siis võtsin ühe inglise keelse raamatu, samuti mingi USA oma, räägib ühest poisist, kes kaotas pmts kõik enda pereliikmed II maailmasõjas. Olgu, jõudsin orgu. Märkasin, et üks kahtlane poiss jälitab mind. Mõtlesin, et äkki läheb samat teed pidi. Kuulan siis Ipodi edasi ja kuulen mingi minuti pärast tema elevandisamme täpselt enda seljataga. Pöördusin ja küsisin : MIDA? Ta ohis seal midagi oma ette. Ma hakkasin eemalduma, vahtisin väga kahtlaselt teda, ja siis ma taipasin. See peletis pani seal pihku, kuradi majade ees, autod sõitsid mööda. " Mine perse." Oli kõik, mis ma ütlesin, enne kui rutemini kodu poole kõndima hakkasin. Oleksin võinud midagi salvavat karjuda, sest that's what I like to do. Loomulikult ainult nende vastu, kes minu vastu ilma põhjuseta dick'id on. FFUU.

Homme on viimane koolipäev, kus ma õppima pean. Viimane koolipäev 9. klassis. minu väike armas jakobson :)

bai

Sunday, May 29, 2011

I can get back up again.

Mu blogi on väga igavaks läinud. Ma ei kirjuta eriti enam siia igapäeva tegemistest. Ju see on sellepärast, et ma tegin jälle uue Tumblr'i, sest mul läks eelmisel parool meelest, ja email ei tule ka meelde. Mul neid sadu. Kuid Tumblr'it ma siin ei avalda veel. See on thinspiration blogi ja kui olen saavutanud esimese goal weight'i, siis jagan seda ka siin. Kõlab nagu väga naeruväärsena, kuid uskuge mind, seal on palju minusuguseid tüdrukuid. Imelikud, nõmedad, peast segased, haiged.. kõik see sitt, mis teile praegu pähe võib tulla. Sest tegelikult ka, kuidas te saate hästi arvate tüdrukutest (ja ka poistest), kelle mõte on keskendunud ainult ühele asjale ja nad on sellele nii pühendunud, et ülejäänud maailm justkui peatus? Mõni vihkab selliseid inimesi, mõni mõistab.



Homme jookseme kekas 8-10 ringi. Vähemalt üks positiivne asi homse päeva jooksul. Peale kekat tuleb keemia KONTROLLTÖÖ. See karvane pedofiil ju armastab teha tähtsamaid töid enne vaheaega. Igaljuhul, täna on mul vaja palju õppida. Paar bioloogia töölehte vaja täis kirjutada, inglise keeles kirjand ja keemiat tuupida. Selle kõrval ma pean koera välja viima, jooksma ning poodi jogurti järele minema.

Ma ei vaadanud eurovisiooni. Praegu alles Youtubes vaatan neid videosid. Eesti imes. Preili Jaani on okei, kuid laul on minu jaoks väga mööda ja lame. Rootsi poiss oli kena, ja ta laul oli normaalne. Aserbaidžaan oli ka täitsa okei. Moldova oli naljakas. Ja inglise kutid olid over the top :)

Friday, May 27, 2011

I've never been so afraid of failure.

Reede on siis käes. Pean teisipäevaks tegema bioloogias 4 töölehte, et mitte veerandiks 2 saada. Matemaatika kontrolltöö sain 2. Ma ei õppinudki, sest ma ei saanud aru! Statistika ja tõenäosus oli seekord teemaks. Las see kaks jääb, 4 tuleb ikka veerandiks ära. Kaks koolipäeva veel ja siis tutipidu.

Miks te seisate mu tee peal ees? Ma palun väga andeks, kuid see on MINU elu ja mina teen sellega kõike, mida tahan. Palun ärge takistage mind igal mu sammul. Ema ju ähvardas mind hullumajja panna, sest ma nutsin, kui pidin üleeile kell 22 activiat sööma. Inimene, kes tahab alla võtta, ei söö kurat kell 22. "sa võid alla võtta a see tuleb nkn kohe tagasi" nii ütles üks sõbranna, suht pauk oli lahti ja no ma tõestan endale, et see ei tule tagasi. ah perse ka, fucked up.


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

veel 100 fakti.

Tulin peale teist tundi koju. Väga sitt tuju on. Ma ei räägi miks. Kõigile nagunii selgelt teada. Enne Pärnu veekeskusesse minekut leidsin ühe maheda asja. check it out

1. had sex.
2. bought condoms.
3. gotten pregnant.
4. failed a class.
5. kissed a boy.
6. kissed a girl.
7. used a little paper bag for lunch.
8. had a job.
9. slipped on ice.
10. missed the school bus.
11. left the house without my wallet.
12. bullied someone on the internet.
13. sexted.
14. had sex in public.
15. played on a sports team.
16. smoked weed.
17. smoked cigarettes.
18. smoked a cigar.
19. drank alcohol.
20. watched “The Breakfast Club”
21. been overweight.
22. been underweight.
23. had an eating disorder.
24. been to a wedding.
25. made fun of someone for being fat.
26. been on the computer for 5 hours straight.
27. watched tv for 5 hours straight.
28. been late for work.
29. been late for school.
30. kissed in the rain.
31. showered with someone else.
32. failed my drivers test.
33. ran a mile in less than 10 minutes.
34. been outside my home country.
35. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours.
36. had lice. 
37. gotten my heart broken.
38. had a credit card.
39. been to a professional sports game.
40. broken a bone.
41. been unhappy about my weight.
42. won a trophy.
43. cut myself.
44. had an STD.
45. got engaged.
46. been on a diet.
47. tried out to be on a tv show.
48. rode in a taxi.
49. been to prom.
50. played a drinking game.
51. stayed up for 24 hours or more.
52. been to a concert.
53. had a three-some.
54. had a crush on someone of the same sex.
55. been in a car accident.
56. had braces.
57. learned another language.
58. killed an animal.
59. been at a yard sale.
60. been to a japanese steakhouse.
61. wore make up.
62. talked to someone via webcam.
63. lost my virginity before I was 16.
64. had my wisdom teeth taken out.
65. kissed someone a different race than myself.
66. snuck out of the house.
67. bought porn.
68. had a virus on my computer.
69. had oral sex.
70. dyed my hair.
71. gone skinny dipping.
72. graduated from college.
73. wore someone else’s clothes.
74. voted in a presidential election.
75. rode in an ambulance.
76. rode in a helicopter.
77. caught the stove on fire.
78. got in a fight.
79. met someone famous.
80. been on vacation.
81. been on an airplane.
82. been on a boat.
83. broken something expensive.
84. had surgery.
85. kissed someone before I was 14.
86. beat a video game.
87. found something valuable on the ground
88. made a survey 
89. stalked someone on facebook/myspace. 
90. prank called someone.
91. been to a library outside of school.
92. spent over $100 shopping in one day.
93. cut my hair and hated it.
94. peed outside.
95. went fishing.
96. helped with charity.
97. taken a pregnancy test.
98. been rejected by a crush.
99. been suspended from school.
100. broken a mirror.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

facts


TEN ARE YOU’S1. Are you single -  yes
2. Are you happy -  no
3. Are you bored – no
4. Are you naked -  no
5. Are you a blonde - no I'm not
6. Are you moody – definitely
7. Are you a lover/hater - "hater" is out of question.
8. Are you hot/cold - warm
9. Are you Irish - no
10. Are you Asian - 1/7784544, so yep.

TEN FACTS 1. Name – Sandra
2. Middle-name - none
3. Any birth marks - got lot's of them
4. Hair color – brown
5. Natural hair color - dark brown
6. Eye color - brown
7. Height - 164 cm8. Mood - sad
9. Favorite color – turqoise, pink, black
10. One Place You Want to Visit - Miami

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 1. Do you believe in love at first sight - no
2. Do you believe in soul mates - yes
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - sure I have.
5. Have you ever broke someone’s heart ? -  I guess so
6. Ever had your heart broken ? - o ya.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them ? - yes.
8. Are you afraid of commitment ? - kinda
9. Who was the last person you hugged ? -  matu
10.Who was the last person you said I love you to ? -  haven't said it to anyone

TEN THIS OR THAT 1. Love or lust – both
3. Cats or dogs – both
4. A few best friends or many regular friends - best friends
5. Television or internet - internet
6. Chinese Or Indian - chinese
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – wild night out
8. Money or Happiness - money
9. Night or day - both
10. MSN or phone - phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER 1. Been caught sneaking out – no
2. Been skinny dipping - no
3. Bungee jumped – no
4. Finished an entire jaw breaker – no
5. Lied to someone you liked – yes
6. Wanted an ex boyfriend/girlfriend back – yes, regret it now 
8. Cried yourself to sleep ? - no
9. Cried because you lost a pet – yes
10. Wanted to disappear – yes.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER 1. Smile or eyes - smile
2. Light or dark hair – light
3. Hugs or kisses - both
4. Shorter or taller – taller
5. Intelligence or attraction – both
6. Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous
7. Funny or serious - funny
8. Older or Younger - older
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad Ass – in between
TEN HAVE YOU’S 1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - YES!
2. Ever had sex - haha.
3. Ever consumed alcohol? - yep
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – no
6. Ever Been on a dance team - yes
7. Ever been on a sports team - yes
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yes
9. Ever kissed the same sex - yes
10. Ever been in a rap video? - no

TEN LASTS 1. Last phone call you made – kristina
2. Last person you hung out with - K and some other friends
4. Last time you worked – last summer
5. Last person you tackled – idk
6. Last person you IM’d - i don’t use it
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - with my whole fucking class
9. Last thing you missed – my navel piercing
10. Last thing you ate - yoghurt

LAST PERSON TO 1. Sleep beside you ? - ex-crush
2. See you cry ? Krissu
3. You went out to dinner with ? - parents
5. You talked on the phone to ? - kristina
7. Made you laugh ? - kristina

WOULD YOU RATHER
1. Pierce your nose or tongue ? - tongue
2. Be serious or be funny ? - funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk ? - wouldn't drink that
4. Spend time with your parents or enemies ? - enemies

ARE YOU 1. Simple or complicated ? - both in a different way
2. Retarded ? - u tell me

DO YOU PREFER 1. Flowers or candy ? - flowers
2. Gray or black ? - black
3. Color or Black and white photos ? - both
4. Sunrise or sunset ? - sunset
6. Staying up late or waking up early ? - staying up late

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY 1. Do you like anyone ? - no.
2. Do they know it ? - no.

UNIQUE1. Nervous Habits ? - doing something very retarded with my toes :D
2. Are you double jointed ?- guess not
3. Can you twist your tongue around and roll it ? - why the fuck would I do that?
4. Can you raise one eyebrow ? - yes
5. Can you cross your eyes ? - dk
6. Do you make your bed daily ? - nooo

QUESTIONS 1. Which shoe goes on first ? - left one
2. Ever thrown something at someone ? - ofc I have
3. On average, how much money do you carry with you ? - depends. 10-20EUR perhaps
4. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it ? - twirl
5. Have you ever eaten Spam ? - what?
6. Favorite ice cream ? - don't eat that
7. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet ?  - 1
8. What’s your favorite beverage ? - I only drink water;)
9. Do you cook ? - no

LASTS 1. Last Alcoholic Drink - gin
2. Last Car ride - yesterday
3. Last Movie Seen - I love you, Phillip Morris
4. Last Song Played - Lil Eddie - Statue